The Ups and Downs...

This journey has definitely had many ups and downs, not just in relation to weight.

As each week passes I am trying to add "new" foods back into my lifestyle. Some are received better than others. The daily challenge of figuring out what to eat and how I will tolerate it are ever present. What I eat today and seem to tolerate may not be so favorably accepted the next. It's amazing what can change in a matter of a few minutes, hours, days, and even weeks. I will continue to try and retry things for the rest of this journey, which only ends when I no longer need to eat. The goal is still trying to squeeze in as much protein as I can each day, though I rarely get close to my daily goal of 100 grams.

This week was a bit disappointing, on Wednesday morning when I weighed in the scale showed a gain of 3/10 ths of a pound. I know that's not a whole lot but when you eat so little and are told you will see "big" changes each week, a gain of any proportion can be devastating. Another challenge is knowing that you have lost weight but not really seeing the difference you hoped for. Maybe its because I see myself everyday in the mirror that I don't always see the little changes.

I know that I am changing, the way I feel is a big one, the almost non-existence of my headaches and particularly the blasted migraines of the past 25+ years. The outward changes have been harder for me to notice but I am beginning to notice the way clothes are starting to fit even looser and almost fall off, the new clothes I have been able to wear that actually give me a bit of a figure, the comments from those around me, and the positive encouragement of family and friends. Another big change has been receiving comments and compliments from the Mister. For those who know him and the struggles we face, that is a huge milestone.

So this morning I was awake bright and early (a little after 7 am), why on the weekends does this happen when every work day I struggle with being tired and not wanting to get out of bed, so I decided to do a spontaneous weigh in...and I am glad I did. I lost 3.4 lbs!!! I needed that boost. So my total lost is now 46.4 lbs. Not bad for 4 months.

Suzanne

P.S. The nurses in the Bariatric Unit were right...this has been one of the best decisions I have made. Even with the challenges I have and will continue to face, I don't regret it and wouldn't change what I did for the world.